Global warming

I still remember when I was a child how it was hot during the summer the perfect time to ride your bike, eat ice cream , and go to the beach .

Although the winter was cold, a sweater or a jacket and maybe a scarf were more than enough.

Many years later, and it’s insane out there. During summer thousands of animals die due to extreme high temperatures, crops are destroyed, millions of people lose their homes around the world due to floods, and during winter… thousands of passengers/flights are either delayed or cancelled, once again crops are destroyed, and unfortunately some people die.

Will the human race do something before it’s too late? Or are we and future generations doomed?

CHRISTMAS

I’ve never liked Christmas. Maybe it’s because all of the hypocrisy, the lies, that in my opinion come with it, or maybe it’s basically because it has always sucked. When I was a little girl, I had to spend Christmas with my mother’s family which turned out to be two old aunts and my grandmother (obviously I thought they were really old, now that I come to think of it, they were not, (they must have been 65) 

Every single year my mother would tell us that we didn't know if our aunts and grandma. would still be alive next year, and that we should enjoy the party. But how could we? we were just kids, we wanted to do kid stuff, and trust me, acting like a grown up is not. Such boring parties we had. 

Years passed by,we grew up, and started celebrating Christmas with our "new" families. But much to my surprise it happened again. I hated those parties, always felt miserable. Every time my sister and I talk about it she feels pretty much the same way.

I don't know about her, but for me, I just feel really sad. Don't get me wrong, I think it's good that people are nicer to each other, but why? I just don't get it. Why are people nice once a year? Wouldn't it be better if human beings were nicer to each other every single day? Wouldn't it be better to feel love, joy, and to be grateful every single day of our lives? But it's usually not, after New Year's Day, we all go back to hate, to fear, and despair.

So, this year I'll spend Christmas at home with my dogs and my partner,not because it's Christmas, because I love them deeply every single day of my life.

SONGWRITING

When I was 7 or 8 years old I wrote my first song. A few years ago, I came across the one and only tape where I can actually listen to myself singing it.

As years passed by, I kept on writing songs.  See, for me, writing songs or poems has always been cathartic. Every song I wrote was a demon I killed from within. Maybe I’ll never understand it.

I must confess that feeling miserable helped, and it helped a lot. I guess I just spent so many years feeling sorry for myself, that let’s say I was truly inspired.

A few days ago, someone said that if life or love didn’t suck, there wouldn’t be such great songs in the world.

I’m over 30 now, and to tell you the truth I haven’t been able to write a single song for the past couple of years. It turns out, that I’m happy. Oh I know I’m a crappy songwriter, but I just don’t like my “happy” songs.

I know that if I wanted to keep on writing songs, I would just have to go to that dark place, but would it be worth it? Would I be willing to awake the demons within?

VEGETARIAN VS VEGAN

Becoming a vegetarian is not something I decided in a couple of days. It took me several years actually, to find the courage (if you will) to change my life. A few months ago when  I said goodbye to meat, chicken, etc. I was afraid. I didn’t know If I’d fall off the wagon. After a few weeks I realized I was really happy with my decision. I haven’t stopped eating Japanese , Chinese, Italian, and  Mexican food. Last weekend for example while watching a movie, I ate a Caesar salad, pasta, and a delicious pizza. I’m fully aware I could become a vegan (it’s not impossible in Mexico, although certain products are more expensive) but could I give up cheese? Gouda? gruyere? goat cheese? I don’t think so, it’s simply delicious.