Global warming

I still remember when I was a child how it was hot during the summer the perfect time to ride your bike, eat ice cream , and go to the beach .

Although the winter was cold, a sweater or a jacket and maybe a scarf were more than enough.

Many years later, and it’s insane out there. During summer thousands of animals die due to extreme high temperatures, crops are destroyed, millions of people lose their homes around the world due to floods, and during winter… thousands of passengers/flights are either delayed or cancelled, once again crops are destroyed, and unfortunately some people die.

Will the human race do something before it’s too late? Or are we and future generations doomed?

CHRISTMAS

I’ve never liked Christmas. Maybe it’s because all of the hypocrisy, the lies, that in my opinion come with it, or maybe it’s basically because it has always sucked. When I was a little girl, I had to spend Christmas with my mother’s family which turned out to be two old aunts and my grandmother (obviously I thought they were really old, now that I come to think of it, they were not, (they must have been 65) 

Every single year my mother would tell us that we didn't know if our aunts and grandma. would still be alive next year, and that we should enjoy the party. But how could we? we were just kids, we wanted to do kid stuff, and trust me, acting like a grown up is not. Such boring parties we had. 

Years passed by,we grew up, and started celebrating Christmas with our "new" families. But much to my surprise it happened again. I hated those parties, always felt miserable. Every time my sister and I talk about it she feels pretty much the same way.

I don't know about her, but for me, I just feel really sad. Don't get me wrong, I think it's good that people are nicer to each other, but why? I just don't get it. Why are people nice once a year? Wouldn't it be better if human beings were nicer to each other every single day? Wouldn't it be better to feel love, joy, and to be grateful every single day of our lives? But it's usually not, after New Year's Day, we all go back to hate, to fear, and despair.

So, this year I'll spend Christmas at home with my dogs and my partner,not because it's Christmas, because I love them deeply every single day of my life.

SONGWRITING

When I was 7 or 8 years old I wrote my first song. A few years ago, I came across the one and only tape where I can actually listen to myself singing it.

As years passed by, I kept on writing songs.  See, for me, writing songs or poems has always been cathartic. Every song I wrote was a demon I killed from within. Maybe I’ll never understand it.

I must confess that feeling miserable helped, and it helped a lot. I guess I just spent so many years feeling sorry for myself, that let’s say I was truly inspired.

A few days ago, someone said that if life or love didn’t suck, there wouldn’t be such great songs in the world.

I’m over 30 now, and to tell you the truth I haven’t been able to write a single song for the past couple of years. It turns out, that I’m happy. Oh I know I’m a crappy songwriter, but I just don’t like my “happy” songs.

I know that if I wanted to keep on writing songs, I would just have to go to that dark place, but would it be worth it? Would I be willing to awake the demons within?

VEGETARIAN VS VEGAN

Becoming a vegetarian is not something I decided in a couple of days. It took me several years actually, to find the courage (if you will) to change my life. A few months ago when  I said goodbye to meat, chicken, etc. I was afraid. I didn’t know If I’d fall off the wagon. After a few weeks I realized I was really happy with my decision. I haven’t stopped eating Japanese , Chinese, Italian, and  Mexican food. Last weekend for example while watching a movie, I ate a Caesar salad, pasta, and a delicious pizza. I’m fully aware I could become a vegan (it’s not impossible in Mexico, although certain products are more expensive) but could I give up cheese? Gouda? gruyere? goat cheese? I don’t think so, it’s simply delicious.

HERE'S THE PROOF

That my dogs, really sit down.

MY DOGS

A few days ago, I was reading a very funny blog; in fact I couldn’t stop laughing, because it reminded me of my two dogs.

Due to my youngest dog’s restlessness, I had to ask for help (something I’m not really fond of) he was basically tearing our apartment apart, and driving his older brother crazy.

So every day before I go to work I take them to their grandparents (my parents) and after work I pick them up. My parents’ neighborhood is really quiet, which has been really good for the dogs. They are happier and more relaxed now.

Now let me tell you about what happens in the car. Our older dog is quite used to the car, and really enjoys it, but the younger one, hasn’t really been able to get used to it. He still gets dizzy and drools. He has even thrown up a couple of times. When I bought their seatbelts the older one, looked at me as if saying: “but why mother, why do you punish me in such a tremendous way?” I never know what to expect from each day’s ride. Some days they are very quiet. Other days as I drive instead of listening to music I listen to their “singing” (which could be described as high pitched. almost deafening sounds)

I must confess, sometimes I really have to take a deep breath, but to tell you the truth, how can I get really mad? How can I say “bad dogs” when as soon as we get home (and after cleaning their paws), they sit down on the couch? (They really sit down), or when I say “treat” they rush to the kitchen and wait patiently for their treat? No, it’s impossible.

I just love them and I love them deeply. 

LIP SERVICE

A few months ago, I was reading on After Ellen about a show that would be UK’s response to The L Word.  Last week I watched Lip Service’s finale (hopefully season finale, not just finale)

I wouldn’t dare to call it a response to The L Word, because they only made 6 episodes, and there’s still no word on whether they’ll do a second series (season).

Lip Service, in my opinion, is so much darker (I don’t even know if I could think of The L Word as dark, except for what you did on the last season Ilene, remember: us lesbians don’t forget and process way too much)

The characters on Lip Service, are more believable, women struggling to move on from either past relationships, or terrible jobs. Unfortunately with only 6 episodes, there are many questions unanswered, incomplete storylines.

I truly hope there will be a second season, not only because I liked it, because as a gay woman I think we need more visibility, and by that I don’t mean the typical lesbian killer, or the lesbian couple struggling to begin a family, or worse… the lesbian who ends up with a man.

I’m crossing my fingers, please, please UK, don’t let us down. 

Law & Order SVU

I like watching TV at night (that’s when I have the time)and there are different shows that I love. One of them is Law & Order SVU. In Mexico it aired on on Tuesdays at 10 pm. So I waited patiently for the new season. Last week I was ready to watch the new season, when I realized they changed the time. It now airs at 11 pm. What????? How am I supposed to watch it now? I don’t know if I’m getting old, but I fall asleep. I’ve already missed two episodes. Who’s the idiot who decided to air it so late? I’m really mad.

NIEVE

My life has changed since I met you, finally became a vegetarian, and try to feed every dog I find wandering on the street. Most of the time I think you  really had bad owners, and that's why you got lost.
I feel so frustrated, so sad to know that we can't keep you with us.
Trust me we are doing our best in finding the best home for you, although deep down I'm still waiting for some kind of miracle, a little help from the universe, so you can be with us forever.

I really love you my dear dog.

FINALE 2009

Many years ago I was at school studying composition (that is music composition) and had to make my homeworks using finale (it must have been 1996,or 1997) which is a music software that helps you compose. A month ago, a family member reminded me of finale and told me even though my actual job/life has absolutely nothing to do with music, I shouldn’t stop composing (I come from a family of classical musicians and composers)so I got Finale 2009 (thanks honey) and  I already finished my first “comeback composition”.   Why not? And you know what? It feels great.

Facebook

Almost three years ago my partner convinced me of joining Facebook. I was quite reluctant even though she sent me an invitation, so anyway I decided to join. At first I must confess I had a great time. But as time passed by it was very disappointing, most of my “friends” were such idiots .I can’t understand how people tend to be so dull, forget about words, and only focus on pictures and “poking” people. Is it just plain stupidity? Or are we so alone, and in need of approval, that we end up doing anything in order to be liked?

That to me is a mystery.

hello there!!

I’ve always wondered what it would be like to write a blog. So this is my trying for the first time.

What could I possibly write about? Well, after asking myself the same question over and over again, I realized I could write about anything, there’s a slight chance that I’ll be the only person in the whole world reading this.

If I’m not, then you are welcome, let’s find out together what this journey will be about.